Wednesday, October 20, 2010

I Have an Eating Disorder

Actually, I have two.

Anorexia...of the soul

Many times, I starve myself of the very sustenance that I require for survival. My very spirit is cramped up with hunger pains, yet I do not eat the Bread of Life. Malnourishment sets in.

Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty."
~ John 6:35
Binge Eating...of the flesh

Other times, I indulge and overindulge until I am bloated. My flesh devours all that it desires until no room remains for the Living Water. Disease sets in.

Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water."
~ John 4:10
I waste away when I believe the lie that can make it through the day without first dining on good food. My anorexia is rooted in self-sufficiency. Pride. I swell and fester when I believe the lie that the things of this life can fill me up. My binge eating is rooted in selfishness. Lust.

The only cure for my disorders is a lifestyle change.

The only cure for pride is humility. On my knees, humbly acknowledging that I cannot survive one single minute without the Bread of Life. For lustful cravings, rejection and replacement. I must reject that which I crave, replacing it with a longing to fill up on the Living Water.

The only path to this lifestyle change is a daily feast. Not a feast on weekdays only. Not a feast in only hard times or good times. A daily feast. Every day, devouring the soul nutrients contained in the Word of God, quenching my thirst on His Word alone, dining at His banquet table. Daily.

Here I am! I stand at the door and know. if anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.
~ Revelation 3:20
Do you need a lifestyle change, too?

Perhaps we can do it together. Would you join me in the challenge to feast on the Word of God daily for four weeks? Check back on Friday, and details will be posted here.

holy experience


  1. Oh, this is such a great analogy. I have the same eating disorders as you do. May we all learn to correct them with the food that only He can give us in all the right amounts. Thanks for sharing.

  2. Such conviction! I love this post... it and anne's has spurred me on to memorize scripture and dine at his table. I love the analogy of these two diseases. I have them both as well. I want a deep walk with Jesus. Not some superficial, shallow walk.
    Thanks for the post!

  3. I would love a 4 week challenge of feasting on His words! And I loved this post! I've known that I suffer from these things, but the ways you describe it touch such a significant part of my heart! Amen Sister, Amen!

  4. Oh!!! How great a daily feast sounds! I have both problems as well. You are a great observationalist. and another one, I have the opposite of Anorexia (where I look in a mirror and think I am thin)


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