Confession Time

You may have noticed my weight loss ticker. It was up around 7 lbs lost. And it's not anymore. For a couple weeks I just stopped weighing in, knowing that I was gaining. If I weighed in I would have to change my ticker, then I would be ashamed in front of my friends.

But I'm not going to keep secrets, and I will refuse the shame the enemy wants to heap on me. Because keeping our struggles a secret only keeps us feeling miserable; when we are open with our struggles, we are opening ourselves up to receive encouragement and prayers.

My struggle with this weight loss comes down to two issues: laziness and laziness. I would rather read some good blogs - when I get an hour of quiet time in the afternoon - than exercise. I would rather munch on what's readily available and prep-free - chips, fast food, etc. - than take the time to prepare healthy, lower fat meals and snacks.

My nature is to be lazy. So I give in to it. When the guilt comes (and it almost always does), I make excuses. There's too much going on right now and I can only focus on one major thing at a time; I'll focus on the weight loss after this is done. I've already completely shot today (or this week), so I may as well indulge and enjoy. Tomorrow (or Monday, or the 1st) is a good day to start. And round and round I go.

I am tired of going round and round. I am tired of my weight going down then back up again. But I am also so tired of fighting the daily battle against my laziness. It's hard to keep going when you find yourself only winning the battle 1/3 of the time.

So if you are in the same boat as me, I really want to hear from you. I need a partner in this battle, someone to work together. If you're local, even better (because I could sure use a buddy to exercise with). Isn't everything just a little bit easier when you're doing it with a friend?